Sometimes I feel like I wish I could go back.

I've never been the kind of person to regret something. To want to turn back time.
But I do. I do now. Even though now I have friends. Things were different.

I feel tied down.
I'm only 17.

I miss the rain.
I miss watching Spider-Man.
I miss dry, witty, sarcasm.


I miss you.

Millie girl again :) It's real rare for her to sit on your lap or lay on your bed at night, but she came and flopped down on my stomach while I was reading one night. Apparantly, Millie is quite the fan of JK Rowling. That's my girl :)

Reasons why I love the people on my top 8.

Sandra Nicole Griego.
1. She's very very ditzy, and it makes me feel smart :) Plus I like teaching her things.
2. She has a little kid type of personality. Everything amuses her.
3. I can make her laugh by doing ANYTHING.
4. We have 4 years worth of memories as bestfriends.
5. She smells good :)

Jessika Nicole Montoya
1. She doesn't care at all what people think about her.
2. Her sense of fashion is so eclectic and amazing.
3. She has a beautiful voice AND she can draw.
4. She never ever fails to make me laugh.
5. She's loud and silly, just like me.

Andrew William Bouchard
1. He's kind of my boyfriend.
2. He READS. I love when people actually pick up books.
3. He'll pretty much do whatever it takes to amuse me.
4. He makes me laugh when we watch little kid shows late at night :)
5. He's TALL.

Kyle Anthony Trevino
1. He's probably one of the top 3 funniest people I've EVER met in my life.
2. He gives good hugs.
3. I can talk to him about stuff.
4. He is tech-savvy and helps me with stuff when I'm confused and discombobulated.
5. He keeps plans when he makes them.

Jacqui (Ann, I think) Zebraskiin
1. She's fucking hilarious!
2. She has all this talent, all this stuff I wish I could do, like knit and draw.
3. She's one of the only girls I know who is not stupid and bitchy.
4. She likes doing things that other people find boring, like going to Target and Ikea :)
5. She says things that I don't think she means to sound funny, but still are.

Jill (I'm just realizing I don't know her full name)
1. She's absolutely gorgeous.
2. She's so crafty, and makes the most beautiful bows.
3. She's one of the funniest people ever.
4. She's super protective of Sandra and I and she's like the sister I never had.
5. She's not another stupid girl.

Burke Edward Boydell
1. He knows proper grammar, thank goodness.
2. He always knows how to make me feel better about myself.
3. His eyes are AMAZING.
4. He's so sweet and cares so much about his friends :)
5. He's there to listen.

Shelbz (Her name is just Shelbz, okay?)
1. She's too far away, so when we do talk, it's a rare treat.
2. She's pretty :)
3. She has an awesome dog, Lakota, the Husky.
4. She has a wonderful girlfriend who is also pretty.
5. She's going to buy and send me a webcam!

The end!

My babygirl, Frisby. She is one of the most important things in my life. I got her when I was 7. She's my girl, my favorite, my best friend. Sometimes I can't believe how much personality she has. She's a pistol, everyone is afraid of her. I love her so much<3

I'm thinking I might want to do something where every day or every other day I post a picture from my cell phone, because I'm currently saving them all on my computer, and I can just talk a tiny bit about the picture.

I feel like it might be something nice to look back on.

I just hope it doesn't become super boring for my 10,000 readers.
Oh wait..

Okay, I'm not so worried anymore.

You know what I miss?

There was a time around the time Twilight came out..maybe almost 8 months or so ago.

And I would wear tights and boots, and it was cold out.

And I would put fake eyelashes on and drive by myself to Barnes and Noble, and sit by myself and read books, and drink water and be alone.

And I was really sad because I had no friends.

And no one would talk to me.

And I never hung out with anyone.

But it was happy.

I was okay.

And looking back, it was good memories.

Reading Foxtrot, and wearing leggings and tights and dresses and skirts and going to get my monroe done. I can't believe I was so okay with being alone, even though at the time, I didn't know I was okay.

Life changes alot.

I have Andrew now, even though we were friends before, we didn't have anything really.

I have Kyle now, and we're close, even though I'm afraid I might lose him to another girl who comes along.

Sandra's not around enough.

I never really was able to depend on her.

It hurts alot. I care so much about her and I feel like I get absolutely nothing in return.

Mehhh.

Sometimes I wish I could go back to being alone all the time.

But mostly I think I miss the cold weather :)

I had a really fun day with Jacqui today!

I woke up really late. At like 2. 0_0

And then I hurried and got ready and she picked me up.

I picked up my check and then went to the bank.

THERE WAS LIKE..A TERRORIST OR SOMETHING AT THE MOBILE STATION!!

And then we went to Ikea!

And it was fun and I want my house to look like those awesome models.

And the food was yummy and CHEAP.

And then we went to Joanne so Jacqui could buy some..knitting stuff.

And then Target.

And I bought cute ass shoes

and a MINI MARSHMALLOW SHOOTER (win!)

Aannnddd Mary Poppins and 101 Dalmations.

It was awesome :)

Jacqui iz kool.